By post:

1. I miss...
2. Fate and Goodbyes
3. That Thing...
4. "Life is taking our photographs. We often pose the...
5. I never thought I'd be concerned
6. Exhilarate
7. Skip a beat
8. Hip and Happy
9. We're talkin' beach... babe.
10. The art of doing nothing

By month:

1. March 2008
2. April 2008
3. May 2008
4. June 2008
5. July 2008
6. August 2008
7. September 2008
8. October 2008
9. November 2008
10. December 2008
11. January 2009
12. February 2009
13. March 2009
14. April 2009
15. May 2009
16. June 2009
17. July 2009

I always rant about everyday being an endless cycle and how I can't find a way to stop it from circling round and round. But now, things went topsy-turvy. How gnarly is it that now that my days are not normal, I'm longing for another day that I'm gonna start breathing easy again? Yesterday I was panting, and today I still am. When you ask for your days to stop being normal just so you would enjoy the twists of living your run-of-the-mill teenage life, it means you are asking for a random peepeetee-popetee-boo, a realistic event that would make you ecstatic. But not this, you wouldn't ask for this in your lifetime. Fever, cough, colds, sore throat, bad luck, mood swings, paranoia attacks all in one sitting. What tremendous thing did I do to deserve such bad karma? I can't even finish a sentence without letting out a series of coughs. I just want to feel better, even emotionally. I'm worrying about some things, and they are better left unsaid, or just silently prayed for.


I know we all have our weary moments but I'm hoping this'll end soon. I'm feeling so bad. I miss my dry, snot-free nostrils, I miss the word boring, I miss real fun too, I miss being carefree (not the panty liners), I miss it. I miss not having to worry about anything- at all. Oh please miss me too :'(

College has gotten a little flimsy these days. It's a real distress not to be that freshman I was just a year ago. Those days when I looked forward to every school day, only to indulge in almost infinite freedom I never had back in high school. But now, I'm lacking reasons to blog about it, it has become a routine like everything else. And so, I'm leaving the fate of my college life to serendipity.

On the other hand, other pieces of my life have been quite tragic. Not exactly my life, but I feel involved. Unlike some families, our family tree is rather compact, and so what one feels is certainly felt by the other (most of the time). I can't help but feel sorry for my favorite cousins (a.k.a. my numero uno BFFs) who are still devastated by the loss of their dad. It was startling like most deaths. We had to travel to Pampanga to pay a visit to their hometown last weekend. Although we only drained stories to tell and laughed throughout the night, I can see how they try to hide the pain. Sympathy is not a cure, and that's the only thing we could offer if they show their grief. Ate Hazel told me that, they were trying to cease the bursting of tears by joking around like their usual selves. We all felt lonely intrinsically of course. On the second day, we ended up playing poker since we unbelievably ran out of stories. On normal days, we're natural blabbermouths (it runs in the family). Oh how I missed them! We barely see each other since we all went to college and entered different universities. We're all scattered in Manila, and apparently, some of us were a little busy. We never expected we'd see each other again at such a horrifying event :(


Too bad Ate Hazel was the one who took the picture. She's the missing piece.


Dad was our dealer, I won all the chips in three consecutive rounds (we were using piso as chips :))

If you noticed, I chopped my hair off. You are not deceived by your eyes, it is too short. Sometimes I miss being able to tie my hair up or style it in various ways. But anyway, this'll do for now. I feel comfortable with it. Maybe next year I could have my dream hairdo. Long brown hair with lovely curls down the back. \m/

P.S. (out of topic) I haven't watched Transformers 2 yet. Although everybody's saying it's worth watching, I feel lazy. Ang loser ko! But if ever I change my mind and realize Megan Fox is worth getting my butt off the chair (which is a hundred point one percent true but since I'm lazy, the fact would not dawn on me enough to sink into my brain), then I might as well watch and catch that scene when she was on a motorcycle driving like she's the hottest creation ever (which is true once again, c'mon! even girls drool for her! RIGHT?)

"That thing...

That moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy, and the only thing in focus is you and this person, and you realize that that person is the only person you´re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life.

And for one moment, you get this amazing gift, and you wanna laugh, and you wanna cry 'cause you feel so lucky that you found it... and so scared that it'll go away at the same time" - Drew Barrymore, Never Been Kissed

Nah-uh, someone did not get her first kiss just now. Haha. This appears ineresting though. Before going back to school (oh heck I missed breathing that used-to-be A(H1N1) infected air), I was broke, so all I did was stay at home and flip the channel because I couldn't stand any more of the internet! (I never thought it was possible). I happened to watch this kinda old movie. Anyway, I thought it made sense really. Did you? I mean... it's true right?? :"> (uyyy, in love na in love ang dating, haha)

Vacation's over sleepyheads, it's time to overwork!

EDWARD LIM!!!, thank youuuu!
I tell you when it comes to photography, he's a real prodigy

I'm gonna be profound once again. I've been having heavy days doing nothing (there's a strong irony in that statement) that I've got overflowing time to stare into thin air and think about life's spectacular enchantments, the mystery behind catharsis, and fatalism (although I never really believed anything was pre-destined). I've been reading a novel about Philosophy (Sophie's World), which is not in my field of interest but is rather obligatory that I'm almost as nuts as the main character. I never really liked Philosophy you know, why not just live and never mind questions about life and origin? I believe God forbid that we have the knowledge to ever discover, because if He didn't, we would've known by now and our theories would've vanished, so why go against nature? I bet a philosopher would hit me back with an annoying answer.

This is my rebuttal I guess because I still couldn't accept that I'm required to study Philosophy. HAHA. I only have a mellow and easy-going outlook in life, there's no room for questioning my existence so I'm really not in on this. I had an abrupt flashback where I read one line saying "You don't need to know all things in life, just the ones that would make you happy". It must be a real torment not to know what would make you happy. I'm glad I do, and I never needed Socrates or Plato to know :)

You know who you are, THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU. ♥

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P.S. Yes I updated the post as of June 7. Cars, you were not just sleepy yesterday, hahaha.

For some sick reason, I'm liking school. I guess it was just the absence of studying for a month, that I actually missed it (what do you know), or maybe because I kinda enjoy the new ambiance (I shifted to a new course, therefore, I'm in a new college with the same prosaic animo spirit nevertheless) or I just missed my college friends, or all of the above. Overall, I don't know what in the world's elements made me crash to this sudden euphoria, but definitely, I've been wearing a colossal (yes, that's the word I'd like to use) smile for days and it's very rare that I wear it off. I figured I'm not crossing the mediocre string after all (academically speaking)- but when it comes to style, we're against flamboyance as long as the newly-implemented dress code is concerned, goodbye sexy legs on campus!

But then, let's break the ice. Let this news flash hit us. Classes are suspended for 10 days at DLSU-Manila because of an exchange student having swine flu! TELL ME I HAVE NO REASON TO BE PARANOID! Haha. My college friends and I kid around exchanging goodbyes (you know, in case we all caught it). LOL. Anyway, the virus has got me worried, but what's really bothering me is where I'm supposed to get my allowance for 10 days now that classes are suspended :(